I’m saved, sanctified, filled with the Holy Ghost, fire baptized – blah, blah, blah. LOL! Yes, I did just end that with blah, blah, blah. It’s because I honestly have seen this phrase used more as a mask to hide spiritual identity crisis. Just because I’m a Christian doesn’t mean I have to ignore my body and mental health. God IS AN AWESOME GOD! Anyone that knows me knows I give God glory and praise; not ashamed to praise Him where ever I go. However, I also have learned as I’m maturing in this spiritual formation journey that there are some layers that I need help with. To overcome issues that were known and unknown. That’s when I made the decision to get a licensed mental health counselor.
When I started seminary in 2017, during the initial courses, there was book about living a kingdom life. Within that book, it didn’t sugar anything about this life on earth. IT’S HARD! We encounter so much on this side and to believe that we must endure all this alone is not true. Even now, I get emotional thinking about all those who do have to endure hardships and obstacles alone. Not by choice but still they are alone for a specific season. As a vessel for God, it’s not easy. One of the things I found so profound was that the author strongly recommended to seek counseling when necessary. This was a well-established pastor! Someone who counseled others but even he said there’s a need for a professional counselor when necessary.
I decided to start counseling about mid-year of 2018. Why? Honestly, to ensure I don’t go crazy. No offense to those who have gone crazy and had a major mental meltdown. But it finally took one occasion to say I needed help. And it was a Sunday morning! Yep, right in the women’s bathroom at church! I had a meltdown. Not a major one but I had a meltdown. Only a few people know but when I drove to church, I tried so hard that day to get it together. Ya’ll know, ladies! The cute dress, the nice heels, hair exactly right, the fake smile – by the time I left my house, parked my car on the street next to the church, and walked into that bathroom, I WAS DONE! And the whole time I’m driving to church, I felt myself getting overwhelmed, but I couldn’t control it. Every emotion overtook me, and I just busted out in tears in my mother-in-law arms (who just so happen to be right at the bathroom sink when I walked in). I finally got it together after she prayed for me and another woman of God helped me. But I knew then, I had to decide.
Few people know I see a therapist. My husband knows. My best friend knows. A few others. Now, it’s not because I’m ashamed! First off, my therapist is a Christian therapist. And by the time I started seeing her, God had started speaking to my heart about all that I need to do. But God still said, See the therapist because she’ll help keep me accountable. And she’s done just that!
I’m a Godly wife. I’m a Christian author. I’ve accepted my calling as an evangelist. I’m doing better at seeking guidance and support from my pastor, husband, and close friends. Then I also have a therapist! I’m determined to help others transform their lives with God. But I must strive to maintain a healthy balance in order to be the most effective. I want the power of the anointing to flow freely in what I do for ministry and not just a bottle full of emotions that tickles ears. Just like I want yokes destroyed in my life, I want yokes destroyed in EVERYONE’S life! I challenge all Christians to ensure they have a dedicated support group to help them mentally, physically, and spiritually! Do NOT think it’s a sign of weakness or doubt in God’s ability. God works through His chosen for a reason!
Love all of you! God bless!
Stress in ministry is real! This includes mental health issues. I want to hear from my fellow Christian brothers and sisters! How are you ensuring you maintain good mental health so you can stay effective in the Kingdom of God? Comment below! :-)
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